Jesus Christ who? It's Ikram Shah for god's sake!

I lean against the wind. Pretend that I am weightless..

2010-03-14T09:54:00.000-07:00

"I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean look like a thousand diamonds
strewn across ablue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy..happy...
I wish you were here
I lay my head into the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with
holes punched in it
I am counting UFO's
I signed them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy..happy.
I wish you were here
The World's is a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air"

Wish You Were Here - Incubus

2010-03-12T02:02:00.000-08:00

..and all of a sudden, checking my watch is like committing an excusable sin.

Lord GaGa

2010-03-05T21:11:00.000-08:00

I found this picture funny after spending my CNY holiday listening to Bad Romance by Lady GaGa everytime Jari and I were in the car.

A week late post.

2010-03-05T21:00:00.000-08:00

It is very sad to see that kind of tackle had been made. An indeed a nasty one.

"Hisap k**** Eboue la sial nak menang" texted Achap just after the match ended.

(source)

cant think of anything to talk about

2009-11-03T14:12:00.000-08:00

The title pretty much says it all. ive got nothing but a case of writer's block. since im not really a writer, what would it be for me?

maybe i can update you on something. maybe i can show you my wallpaper. i know its pointless, but i dont really care.

(click to enlarge)

hmph. maybe i will find something out and i can update you. maybe..

HM

2009-09-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

Happy 52nd Merdeka everyone!

in Arsene we trust

2009-08-30T01:10:00.001-07:00

The Legendary Mr Arsene Wenger

Arsene Wenger is my hero of the day.

he has always been. he is the reason why i support the arsenal football club. without doubt, he created one of the most enjoyable football team to watch. a living legend, i must say. but who knew he had a sense of humour eh?

the arsenal manager was sent off by referee Mike Dean after he kicked a water bottle in protest over RVP’s disallowed goal in injury-time in the 2-1 defeat at old trafford. wenger then proceeded to go behind the dug-out and stood with the fans with his hands stretched out looking at the referee, before being escorted to the tunnel by a steward. brilliant!

ahh, if they put that on a t-shirt, im the first to buy.

we were really unlucky not to have won the game. we totally and utterly outplayed the so called champions on their own pitch and even the most biased Man Cunt fan can’t deny that. the penalty call was also very harsh as Rooney the Shrek had absolutely no chance of reaching that ball, he literally kicked the ball into the stands and waited for contact from Almunia.

during the course of the game, Man Cunt didn’t create not even 1 decent goal scoring opportunity but still managed to get 2 lucky goals through a pen and an og. im telling all of you now that if Man Cunt continue to play the way they are, there is no chance in hell that they will win the league this season because we, the gunners, are going to gun down the devils once again and yes, we are going to win this season!

be patience because the best is yet to come. as the saying goes, in Arsene we trust.

random

2009-07-07T06:28:00.000-07:00

"all days are nights to see thee.
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee me."- sonnet 43

by Willy the Shitspeare

Sent to Yazmin, the girlfriend 5 minutes ago.

an update from Le Writer

2009-06-13T05:04:00.000-07:00

please be aware that this blog is becoming seriously emotional.

have a great day today readers and make the most of the sunshine, for tomorrow it starts to get cold again..

could it be any harder ?

2009-05-13T06:35:00.000-07:00

I am losing one of the biggest battle in my life.
I am a dead meat now.

O, could it be any harder ?

2009-04-20T09:20:00.000-07:00

"I AM THE TORMENTER OF christian SOUL'S,I AM THE FUNERAL FOG THAT DWELL'S IN THE NIGHT,I AM THE DESICRATER OF holy temple's SPILL THIER BLOOD,VOMIT ON THIER CORPSE'S AND SWALLOW THIER FEEBLE SOUL'S HAIL SATHANAS LUCIFERI 666"

- Lord Melkorth, THE ABHORRENT ONE 666

sinusitis

2009-03-15T04:00:00.000-07:00

an old poem of mine. thought it would be a thoughtful move to post it here. well, i just am not sure.

SINUSITIS

O permata puriku
Biarlah biaraku berbicara
dan Sang Dewata Raya terus berlegar di empayar chenta kita
Tatkala aku mencari Mergastua.

Bidadariku O
Asmaradana.

Guratan luka yang terparut,
Fatamorgana yang bergelora,
Sudah berjilid luka-duka asmara,
Titah dijunjung
Duli dicemar
Untuk mencari cakerawala di hujung dunia.

Para puspita terus berdansa di dalam kotak pendora,
dan
Kultus si Arjuna yang basi;
Hanyalah ilusi, spekulasi, dan fantasi.
Krisis identiti.

Revolusi metal yang kini terus dieksploitasi,
Tiada lagay eksposisi.
Urbanisasi yang lari daripada tradisi,
Tiada lagay konfrantasi.

Nostalgia yang terbina,
Bukanlah fiktif semata.
Datanglah misteri, datanglah padaku.
Semoga bersemadi bersama pulmunariku.

Sekian "TAMMAT"

4.54 a.m.//21 disembar 2006

only time will tell

2009-03-14T03:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes, there is a moment where you ought to do something but you just cant get the job done. you would say, "its just the matter of time" or some would say "lek lu, sap ganja lu".

im all alone now in the house. the mama and the adiks went to kl. the abang is at his hostel. and just now, the abah went out to see orang penting that i dont know who. eh wait a minute, im not alone. the maid is watching tv dekat bawah, kot.

anyhow, today is the abah's 50th birthday and yet, i havent wish him. never to be specific.

only time will tell.

*deep deep sigh*

go duck yourself!

2009-03-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

History of Predictive Text Swearing

Hilarious, dont you think ?

action speaks louder than word

2009-01-27T13:35:00.000-08:00

totally off topic, but what the hell.

im entitled to indulge every once in awhile. friends of mine may remember that im a bit of a horror film fan. hantu film to be more specific. heh. i finally got around to watch Hannibal last night. i had been avoiding it because i figured it would be bad. it wasnt that great but at least somewhat better than i thought it would be. so here is my question for you the readers: can the depiction of graphic violence for the sake of violence have any real merit ?

i admit that i found the film is quite entertaining. but i wouldnt recommend it, and i have no need to see it again, but it wasnt a terrible way to waste an evening. is this enough to redeem what was a brutal and nasty film ?

i could try to argue artistic merit and claim that the film needs no social merit because it functions as art. this seems a bit week in this particular case. i have seen many films which were far more violent and disturbing but that genuinely worked as art. this wasn't really up to the standard where it could be considered art.

did it have any virtue? no, not really. the violence was sufficiently predictable and over-the-top that it didn't really accomplish anything emotional langsung.

maybe movies like this do not need to have any social merit, any redeeming qualities. well maybe the fact that someone finds them entertaining, i think is enough kot. i dont know. i dont mind graphic violence when i feel that there is some point to it. in the absence of any such point, it seems to accomplish little more than desensitization. ahh peduli ah. its just that im not sure this is a good thing. chow.

even a firefighter would struggle to save a cat..

2009-01-20T05:03:00.000-08:00

due to the never-ending conflict in Gaza,
i seize the initiave to show some of my remorse and love to them through my pet society app in the facebook account.

and i am now no longer engaged to coca-cola, maggi and mcd's double cheeseburger for good.
i know these are not enough to help them.
but dont you think its a good way to start, eh?

have a great day readers, hopefully!

the 2009 post

2009-01-09T13:58:00.000-08:00

chow 2008, and sup 2009 ?

so what is it gonna be Nikky ? tits or destiny ?
you decide.

gunners dilemma

2008-12-27T11:27:00.000-08:00

ive been really pissed off with the arsenal's performance lately. i do not know why, but i think it is because mr wenger always keeps his favourite boys on the pitch. songs always get to play because he is "unexceptionally talented". i really dislike emmanuel eboue ever since the boss keeps playing him as the right winger. he is not a winger for gods sake! he is a defender and he is used for bacary sagna's replacement.

Note: Maybe the boss is too busy with his new hobby.

Note: Out for 4 months after the liverfool match.

Note: Will he be the new captain sementara for the gunners ? hmph.

Note: He needs to improve!

Note: some of the best wingers and attackers for arsenal.

Note: One of the greatest gunners captain and missed the most.

Note: one of the boss' pets that i was talking earlier. not the missed one and never gonna be.

christmas eve

2008-12-24T10:39:00.000-08:00

happy Thursday everyone.

im no racist, but sometimes, some orang cina in malaysia are quite annoying. kan ?

[19:11:43]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
oi noob
pp ar
noob

[19:12:16]ikramshah Say:
kimak
u noob host

[19:12:26]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
wad kimak
say hu

[19:12:37]ikramshah Say:
then why i got dc
if not bcs of ur line

[19:12:45]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
u pp ar
fk u noob

[19:12:52]ikramshah Say:
pp ?
u know wat is pp ?

[19:13:4]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
harr
wad
u noob
awww
noob say la

[19:13:11]ikramshah Say:
then how come i still online

[19:13:14]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
leave game lik tat terus
ah puik
noob shyt

[19:13:26]ikramshah Say:
leave game dont need to countdown noob

[19:13:28]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
wan say ppl sumor puik
noob haiu

[19:13:40]ikramshah Say:
oo

[19:13:40]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
harrr
rili arr
u noob oso wad
diu
wan say ppl

[19:13:59]ikramshah Say:
i never say i pro
u noob

[19:14:1]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
fk u kao la
noob hai
u call me noob
meanin u pro la
noob

[19:14:27]ikramshah Say:
u blind or wad ?
read back la

[19:14:31]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
shyt puik kao u
noob shyt lousy comp dun play la
noob

[19:14:42]ikramshah Say:
u cakab dekat online boleh la

[19:14:44]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
read wad
tel noob

[19:14:56]ikramshah Say:
noob

[19:15:0]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
teamwork duno ppl sure call u noob la

[19:15:0]ikramshah Say:
dulan

[19:15:3]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
wan talk to me
come ktn la
come
i wan
du wad lan

[19:15:20]ikramshah Say:
lancaw

[19:15:22]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
du ur lan
diu
noob puik
awww little noob cry arr
noov

[19:15:45]ikramshah Say:
noov
oo
ok
noov it is

[19:15:52]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
duno play dota dun play la
puik

[19:15:56]ikramshah Say:
wat puik ?
u stupid or wat

[19:16:2]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
my malay fren oso play beter den u
puik

[19:16:3]ikramshah Say:
u got aids
wan puik2 ?
so

[19:16:11]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
waaa
u
hiv

[19:16:15]ikramshah Say:
im not ur fren

[19:16:16]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
sars
diu
say ppl

[19:16:22]ikramshah Say:
hiv is a virus la stupid
bodoh

[19:16:24]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
say urself la
i oso nt ur fren noob

[19:16:35]ikramshah Say:
i nvr say ur my fren

[19:16:37]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
u gt virus la noob
sohai

[19:16:42]ikramshah Say:
haha
noob la u

[19:16:43]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
lousy shyt kao kao

[19:16:50]ikramshah Say:
only say same thing

[19:16:52]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
den i gt say u my fren?
i gt say
diu

[19:16:56]ikramshah Say:
i dont care

[19:16:57]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
u say 1st

[19:16:59]ikramshah Say:
ur noob

[19:17:0]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
wan say me
noob]

[19:17:2]ikramshah Say:
forever
fuck u

[19:17:10]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
balik kampun hisap mak tete la
noob

[19:17:15]ikramshah Say:
say anything wad u wanna say

[19:17:19]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
fuk wad
wan cry to mum?
go cry to mum la
noob shyt

[19:17:35]ikramshah Say:
oo
i cry to ur mum

[19:17:44]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
wan say ppl wile ownself noob lik hel
diu

[19:17:48]ikramshah Say:
bcs she hisab my kote kuat2

[19:17:49]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
go la
as if i care

[19:17:53]ikramshah Say:
giget somore

[19:17:54]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
diu

[19:17:56]ikramshah Say:
yeala

[19:17:58]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
go la
i care me

[19:18:1]ikramshah Say:
bcs u anak haram

[19:18:1]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
diu
nt lik u

[19:18:4]ikramshah Say:
thats why u dun care
stupid
pig
macibai

[19:18:13]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
hamsap fker
go duno do la
u anak wad
anak bodoh

[19:18:19]ikramshah Say:
haha

[19:18:20]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
bodo

[19:18:20]ikramshah Say:
nvm

[19:18:22]5c007c7c7chinn Say:
stupid

[19:18:27]ikramshah Say:
i was borned in a wad
u anak haram
dunno whos d father
ur mother pelacur
?
or wat ?
haa ?
gro ?
or just a pig ?
play with her granfather
n got u
but they dun wan to keco2
they got u

*and he went offline *

i tried to add him though in my garena, to say how sorry i was to his pig,eh i mean to his mum, but he rejected my request. maybe he was very pissed off with me at that time or maybe his mother is really a pig and his father is actually is his grandfather ?
i know, it is scientifically absurd to happen, but who knows ehh ?

and ohh, please change the "Say" to "says". grammar dohh grammar! chow.

rainbow squad

2008-12-18T09:24:00.001-08:00

i went to jakarta and bandung for my semester break last month for about 4 days.
i got myself a non-infectious penyakit called muntahber(mun-tah-behhrr. the behrr is pronounced like "bear" not "ber-bugil").
and i am really liking this song by nidji called laskar pelangi.

p/s : aiman, gua sumpah rindu tengok rambut afro lu!

toodles!

revolution, gyration & cabal! eh cabal ?

2008-12-10T06:00:00.000-08:00

can i start with a *boilk*?

its quite lame isnt it ? oh no, i wasnt saying that i was on the piss last night. and neither saying that im lame. what im saying here is, this blog is lame. the blog is only being updated once a month for michael jackson's sake!

to my setia readers, gua bukan tamaw update doh, but things now are not the same anymore. im not studying english lagi in college! i had 2 english subs when i was doing my foundation, but now, i only have 1 english sub for the degree. rasa masa 3rd or 4th sem nanti kot. but anyhow, im thinking of registering myself for MUET early next year. so that will, i think, keep this thing going.

can that be the excuse for the sedikit-ness blog entry lately? and alang alang cover up the fact that im too lazy to update ? yes ? haha.

well the truth is, i do write blog once a week, but i never finished them off and they ended up in the drafts. i somehow lost my touch dohh when it comes to finish the posts. damn, i need to stop watching the martha stewart show and start to be realistic! i mean seriously, ive been blinded by a 60++ yo woman that uses cardigan everyday as if it is the "in thing" right now all these times! ah, thats stupid but still, not lame. till then.

have a nice day, i sure as hell wont.

preservation

2008-11-08T23:52:00.000-08:00

"when you accept Jesus you will be filled with his holy spirit and his holy spirit will be your comfort and guide - he will teach you when you are wrong to correct the wrong and to walk in his ways and to learn to be perfect." - a christian

"The Blood of Jesus Christ washes away all sins. only through Jesus Christ can one be forgiven and be on the way to heaven." - a christian

"we are all sinners, but Jesus makes it possible for us to go to heaven." - a christian

"Cast off your religious shackles and free your conscience, there is no heaven and no hell, until you accept this you will die of religious virus." - an atheist

for some of you, the readers, you may know that im not really a fan of Jesus. and for some, you may believe that i make Jesus as the biggest enemy of the Hukum Alam. but a few of you, may think that i talk crap.

well its obviously not your problem when i talk crap as it doesnt langgar the Hukum Alam. or does it ? shit! -.-"

now, onto the topic. i seriously and helplessly do not know why i quoted those rubbish. but im forced to update my blog lately and what i really wanted to write is about Jesus. and voila! this blog is updated! ahah.

p/s : renung renungkan.
p/ss : selamat beramal.
p/sss : congratahniah arsenal for gunning down the devils :D
p/ssss : the justice has been preserved,finally!

thinking and reasoning

2008-09-16T09:10:00.000-07:00

i tend to only engage in thinking within reason.

its mostly because im lazy, but i think most of us would prefer not to have to think about anything rather than something. well in fact, i prefer not having to think about things so much that i would makes me terjubur and dedicate valuable time into telling you how best to do so, but thats if i can find a good enough reason to think about it, i suppose =.="

the other thing about me is that i tend to only engage in thinking with reasoning behind it. this comes in handling when battling those stuck with societal paradigms that should be long gone, but probably comes across as annoying and didactic when conversing casually. that is when i attempt to turn everything into an evidence based conversation and i know its not good for a med student like me. ohh holy fish! gua need to move on!

But fortunately for you the reader, most of what i think will never make it up here, instead i hope to create a place where you can get some insight into the way I do things and the things I think. heh. along the way perhaps my writing and spelling will not suck improve, although the outlook seems bleak.

you should probably know that i think that:

1) perdana menteri is just for pretend and societies continuous pursuit of him causes far more harm than good.

2) terbugil, terjubur and kantoi are three very different things and should not be confused. (this point is especially for izza si bajet avril lavigne :D)

3) if everyone would just use maxis then the world would be a better place.

4) if people gave half as much attention to design as they did to content then my eyes would stop bleeding everything would make a lot more sense.

the above and more will all be explained in due time. i ekceli plan to post twice a week on a topic of my choosing and look forward to the resulting conversation. so link me up into your blog and come back soon. toodles!

metal-fucking-lica is back!

2008-09-12T03:18:00.000-07:00

yes, they are fucking back! they are back with their 10th studio album called Death Magnetic. Death Magnetic is intense! this is the album that should have come out after Justice and before Black! (if you know what im saying la kan).

Death Magnetic is the musical equivalent of Russia's invasion of Georgia - a sudden act of aggression from a sleeping giant.

it has been a long time since i last bought myself a cd, gua rasa the last time gua bought was ensiferum kot. but this album is a wajib buy!

ah cakab banyak pun tak guna doh, go layan the album now!

ohh nyway, nice to see you guys back in old form! nicely done! hail!

Calling All NORWEGIAN Dimmu Borgir Fans

2008-09-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

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Ved å sende en SMS med ALARM mellomrom DIMMU BORGIR til 2210, hjelper du Dimmu Borgir til å bli nominert til beste Live Band 2008 under Alarmprisen!

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Tusen takk!

yesterday and today

2008-07-01T11:55:00.000-07:00

good morning and hello to July!

seriously, i have nothing to update lately. but the good news is, im officially a medical student now! ir ir ir. anyway, i watched a video recently and i just lmao. hint anyone ? the great hitler talks about football. enough said. enjoy!

o man, dont you just love the girls ? nothing personal, its just football.

have a great month, readers!

postcards from strawberry fields

2008-06-15T18:22:00.000-07:00

good morning from a very sunny johore bahru!

well last night, before i went out to lepak and watch euro 08 with my friends, i accidentally found this. a poetry pendek kot namanya. when i was kemas-ing my boxes full with old school books and notes, tiba tiba i was flabbergasted when i saw a transparent file in one of the boxes. dohhh! i have been looking for it for gila lama. shsh. i simpan many of my so-called-artworks in it. im not sure whether my mom had baca any of the shits, but oh please tidak!

anyway, this is one of the shits that im saying about. im not quite sure when did i wrote this but i think it was 2 years ago kot. again, it is in bahasa and with no tajuk. so, comments ?

tiada tajuk
aku seorang yang agnostik dan sering alpa dengan semua permandangan yang sangat luwes;
segala yang aku lihat telah membawa aku ke alam kebejetan;
ya, siapa sangka semua ini bakal terjadi ?
sedasawarsa dahulu, segala tantangan yang hadir dan wujud telah memberikan konsekwensi ke tahab yang paleng klimaks dalam diriku ini dan menyebabkan aku menjadi bobrok.
akan tetapi, aku harus terus mansang dan rasional terhadab segala yang telah terjadi supaya segala impianku diimplimentasikan.

coffee or tea ?

2008-06-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

*yawn*

i really could sleep all day you know. i was quite happily lying on my bed watching an anime called Teppei last pagay and was ready about to sleep, when friends of mine from Terengganu called me and told me he was in town for 3 days for lepaking with the selatanians and invited me to go out for a drink and lepak. naturally, how could i refuse? 15 hours later - coincidentally 15 hours ago - I staggered home and passed out for about 12 hours. woh, what a sleep! well, i stayed up for about 31 hours before that though. So again, its my natural sociability thats the reason for the late blog. Not just because Im a lazy arse. Not just because of that, oh no.

well, last night match was the terbaek so far in euro 2008. holland vs france. i was very excited and taksub to watch that match even i was so ngantuk. i mean, hello, both teams have such wonderful players. the almighty-used-to-be henry scored.with a beautiful flicked. and so did robben, but with the goal that only and usually happen when we are playing winning11. gila maaat! after that sneijder score. with a superb turned, he scored. and that has to be my goal of the competition so far. i always have been very impressed with this lad since he wass still playing for ajax fc. superb talent. and, hopefully cesc fabregas score again tonight! hee. chow!

we are under attack!

2008-06-12T13:02:00.000-07:00

hello, its a Thursday!

please accept my apologies for not blogging last month. May was a very instense month for me. i had my final exams which i think was quite terbogel (macham biasa) and, and, aaa i dont remember what i did last month but im dead sure it was a very busy month for me. oh yea, dota matches with rahman's clan and aiman's clan. shsh. pretty packed doh. so anyhow,theres a gig coming up next month. a metal gig i would say. the line up of the bands are good, and hopefully the performances are good too. cant wait to watch heterodox live again! heh.

toivonkipinä, kyllä ?

2008-04-24T22:49:00.000-07:00

hyvää huomenta! ;)

some day, i will pack up my bags and head over back to finland. memories of the place fade as i get older. would be nice to sit at a beach's big batu and read a book while listening to good music. the simple pleasures in life. tempted? jom lincah gerak there now! :)

hickey

2008-04-19T05:49:00.000-07:00

few weeks ago, a very gila special person of mine said this to me, "ikram, stop thinking!". i still remember the day. we were having our lunch at Bistro Al-Rafi, ss13. she told me something about a good friend of mine. i found it not amusing at all. i dont know why, i keep thinking about the matter when i was with her. im sorry, i just cant stop thinking about it that petang! since i was small, the pressure was on and i tend to think about anything that happened around me. i mean, anything! but sadly, things that i thought will always ended up in smoke. how lame is that eh ?

well, i did some google about the word 'think'. yes, i google a lot! see how nerd i am ? anyhow, let me show the best result.

thinking involves the cerebral manipulation of information, as when we form concepts, engage in problems solving, reason and make decisions. thinking is a higher cognitive function and the analysis of thinking processes is part of cognitive psychology.

problems solving and decisions making. i have problems with these two things. problems of solving problems. agak terjubur, really.

i think im fussy. i got it from my mum though. yes, my mum is one hell of a very fussy person. ask my bffs(aceh bff sia) for further info. even a slightest mistake could caused me into a big trouble. shish. i still remember those days. when i went back home late dengan baju kotor and basah with muds all over me. i was 8 i think. the moment i opened the gate, i saw my mum bercekak pinggang and was embracing a rotan. sumpah tak tidur malam kot that day. haha.

okay, i think im already off from the topic now. sambung balek. aaaa few months ago, again, an incident that got me thinking. i was lepaking with aiman, telor, pok, and pingu. telor and pingu ambek aiman and i out for dinner with telor's BER kancil. it was around 1 in the pagay. then we went to ss9 to pick up pok. later, after all the stomachs had been filled up with good foods, to telor's house we went. the actual plan was to hantar pingu balek at utm semarak. but when we arrived at telor's house, the plan sudah ter bo gel. we were playing ps2! winning11 for sure. and i tried a game called guitar hero 2. daym i was bad at it, and still am! shish. fyi, i suck on playing 02jam too -.-"

it was like 4 in the pagay, only aiman and i were still awake playing the goddaym game, others were sleeping berteraburly. we had to kejut all of em. we had to hantar pingu balek. we had to follow the actual plan. we had to elak the jam at federal and so on and so forth. but when we kejut-ed telor, he is a uitm student btw, he said something that at the middle of funny and suruisness. mamai-ly of course. "siapalah cipta tidur?" aiman and i was like, wth ? well somehow, that go me thinking who ekceli cipta tidur. haha.

i used once questioned about the god's existance. "does really god exist ?" that question kept bugging me dulu dulu. yearsss ago when i was 14 i think. yes i know, it sounds a bit kufur. and i admit that i was murtad kecil. it was my fault though. not anyone else. ive got myself into this so called satanism religion. ter ju bur. i was young and very taksub back then. i got influenced easily. the internet taught me many things even this satanism religion. every night, i will surf the net and searched about the satanism and stuffs. it was like a research ekceli. but beyond of my expectations, i was starting to like the culture of the religion. the rules. the ideology. i used to hafal the 11 satanic statements of the earth, and the 9 satanic sins(the first one is stupidity. yes, i agreed with that). i hailed prof. anton szandor lavey and made him as an idol. he was literally the founder of satanism. he wrote the satanic bible and owned the satanic church. mati dah brader lavey tu. i was so bodoh at that time. satanism is not really a religion. its more like an ideology. ideology that wants us to be keseorangan. to protect the territory we have made. to protect the kaum. and the most important thing is, to kill the christians! haha.

then, a good friend of mine, some sort of a chat pal, said this to me "gua dah lama buat research pasal agama nih. christian, buddha, islam, and even agama zaman zaman shah jehan dulu masa dorang guna bahasa urdu lagi. apa yang gua dapat, islam ialah agama yang paleng betul". at that very moment, i was like, "omg, apa yang gua dah buat nih ?". i started to taubat. well, yes, im a muslim. and i thank god that i am. alhamdulillah gua tak murtad an. but this experienced started me to think wisely. religion is all about believing. faith. like the rukun iman. the 6 things to percaya at. its all about believing ann ?

i know, i just susahkan myself for some random stupid questions. im tired of thinking. im a dead beat now i must say. but i just cant. i have to think! thinking will anjakkan paradigma ke tahap yang paleng klimaks. and from all of these, i conclude that, some things are made and created, are to be think about and some are to believe.

Maybe for once this is too much crap, and we would be better off listening to the words of the 18th-century Scottish poet, Robert Burns:

"Honeyed Seal of soft affections,

Tenderest pledge of future bliss,

Dearest tie of young connections,

Love's first snowdrop, virgin kiss"

metal fest part ii

2008-04-07T00:48:00.000-07:00

again, the metalfest is here! i can say no more. just wait and be prepared to be caught in the middle of mosh and the riot! infernal hail!

tetamu senja

2008-04-04T22:12:00.000-07:00

Kita datang ini hanya sebagai tetamu senja
Bila cukup detik kembalilah
Kita kepadanya
Kita datang ini kosong tangan dada
Bila pulang nanti bawa dosa bawa pahala

Pada tetamu yang datang dan
Kenal jalan pulang
Bawalah bakti mesra kepada
Tuhan kepada Insan
Pada tetamu yang datang
Dan lupa jalan pulang
Usahlah derhaka pula
Pada Tuhan kepada insan

Bila kita lihat manusia lupa tempat
Atau segera sesat puja darjat
Puja pangkat
Segera kita insaf kita ini punya kiblat
Segera kita ingat kita ini punya tekad

Bila kita lihat manusia terbiar larat
Hingga mesti merempat ke laut biru
Ke kuning darat
Harus kita lekas sedar penuh pada tugas
Harus kita tegas sembah
Seluruh rasa belas

Kita datang ini satu roh satu jasad
Bila pulang nanti bawa bakti padat berkat
Kita datang ini satu roh satu jasad
Bila pulang nanti bawa bakti padat berkat

Datuk A Samad Said

garage music sale!

2008-03-31T02:56:00.000-07:00

one of the greatest poet in the 19th century, william shitspeare once said, "if music be the food of loue, play on!" well, isnt that enough testimony to the power of music ?

alright, in these few past weeks, months maybe, ive been thinking of starting a band. yes, a new music band! this matter maybe, i repeat, maybe kept me away from blogging for awhile kot. heh.

i thought of making a new genre of music. agak terjubur an ? haha i know. its a revolution. ive been studying and thinking about this new kindda genre(agak new ah kot) thoroughly since i was still listening to the crap-pest metallica's album ever made, st. anger back in the year 2003. i asked a lot about this and that to people that live for music, from what ive known, for their views.

to my dissapointment, a good friend of mine, syariz hifni (a metalhead hails from penang) told me, its already have been created before. daym it. and yes, he showed me some bukti to back up his statement. haih. bands ive never heard in my life before. not in million years. but still, theres no similiarity from what really kindda music genre that keeps bugging me all these years. so macham, if, i create this new music genre, gua fikir, at least im a creative thinker an ? haha.

fyi, i am a self-thought musician. i play guitar and bass. i learnt to play the instruments from books that my uncle gave em to me 5 years ago and am still learning. i got my first guitar, which is an acoustic black rhythm(r) 6-string guitar when i was 14. itu pun share dengan abang gua. haha. now, i have 3 guitars. 1 is with me, here in shah alam and the other 2 are back in jb. my abang and i dulu, again, share duet, bought a new red ibanez gax30 gio series 2005 model with 2 humbuckers back in 2005.

the guitar

i loue to play acoustic guitars instead of the electric one. i just dunno why. its a passion perhaps. and i like catchy plus heavy sounded riffs(metal music ah kot ?) rather than solo yang agak panjang dan laju. i really dont do solos and the shredding parts. so, macham from all of these, i thought of making a new music genre. a history i would say. and the so called new music genre is, acoustic metal.

its not gonna be the same as the old band that i have back in johore bahru. it differs in many ways. for real. its a combination of heavy riffs, heavy basslines with the voice of angry elvis. plus, the percussions! no drums ? well, it has to be acoustic. so gua tukar the drums part with percussions. nah, imagine that! agak cool kot. yes ? macham ada gaya gaya lagu roots bloody roots by sepultura. haha. ahhh, good old days! and ohh yea, not to forget, the keys! baru ah bole add some goth parts. and and the vortex! fuhh, i only have 5 words to say weh, man tab ter bo gel.

and yes, the new band that ive been talking about tadi, is an acoutic metal band. interested ? well, i suruisly would like to call upon thee, to "hello hello hello" gua. am looking for bandmates. based from shah alam, subang jaya, kuala lumpur, and as long lu bawah jajahan parti pembangkang. cuba lu imagine opeth punyea acoustic. i mean, have you ever wanted to watch metallica play live with 4 of em playing acoustic(selaen matters song) ? and so, ive been thinking of acoustic-ise the songs from iron maiden,metallica and even dimmu borgir! it would be fun. eh no, it will! ir ir ir. hail! \m/

metal fest 2008

2008-02-28T22:59:00.000-08:00

few bands edi play for the previous metal fest (part 1) back in 2007. hopefully its gonna be a wicked one! hail and kill! metal all the way. B-) later on, gua edit balek ini post yea nigga ?

one more magic potion

2008-02-25T09:09:00.000-08:00

surat chenta terhalang from my kekaseh. taa man tab. :(

Kakanda Ikram Shah,

Lähes kuuden vuoden urakkani jälkeen on koittanut hetki, jolloin astun pois taistelusta. Jonkun muun on aika ottaa paikkani Ensiferumissa. Nämä vuodet ovat olleet unohtumattomia mutta myös raskaita. 100-prosenttisen panostuksen jälkeen kiertueilla, keikoilla ja studiolla olen rättiväsynyt mutta onnellinen; kaikki on ollut sen arvoista. Nyt on aika kuitenkin suunnata uusille vesille.

Tunnen suurta kiitollisuutta kaikkia teitä faneja ja ystäviä kohtaan, jotka olette minua matkan varrella tukeneet. Haluan kiittää Markusta, Samia, Jannea ja Peteä todella motivoivasta bändihengestä ja kaikista unohtumattomista hetkistä. Olette minulle kuin veljiä!

Toivotan onnea ja kestävyyttä seuraajalleni ja soturihenkeä kaikille Ensiferumin kuuntelijoille. Niin kauan kuin maailmassa riittää hyvää olutta, ei voi todella antaa periksi.

- Adindamu, Meiju Enho

miss her teruk teruk ekceli.

our sweet moment at kem khidmat negara, dulu dulu.

i buy loue on e-bay

2008-02-18T12:21:00.000-08:00

testicles 1 2.. testicles 1 2. lama gila gua tak update ann ? okay, so here it goes.

it all started when gua was lapar like nerakka. ingat maw call mcd an. so i texted my sabahan friend, sapek, who is a harcore eater of the faymes mcd's apple pie for mcd's number. 1300131300. then gua fikir balek, it will costs me a lot for only a large set of double cheeseburger. the charges i maen! 5% of gov tax, 5% of service charge, and rm3 for the delivery. imagine that weh!

let say the set costs me rm 9.80;

5% of gov tax : 5% x rm 9.80 = rm 0.49
5% of service charge : 5% x rm 9.80 = rm 0.49
delivery charge : rm 3.00 = rm 3.00

total = rm 3.98

lu gila ka? rm 3.98 ? lahanat. gua dah boleh beli surya 7 batang dah weh!

so i decided to borrow pais'(one of my housemate) kenari to go to mcd ss3 myself. tadahal ah! gua memang ah tadahal, tapi pais adahal ah. daym it! later on gua dengar kirin(will be my housemate soon) wanted to go out to makan. hah gua pun was like, "ter man tab!". maw follow ah naek his bmw. then when beliaw ready siab aja, all of the sudden, ebody yang laen in the apartment(5 orang kot) dengan cargas, agresif & lincah bergaia bersiab ann including pais himself. haha. ter bo gel!

bergerak! asyraf and i naek pais while anep and aizat naek kirin. pais has to go somewhere else dulu ekceli, need to meet someone at sri alam condo,ss13. suhana eh nama dia ? haha. lawa la pula beliaw thu! ir ir ir. dah lah called many times tak angkat angkat. "sorry, tadi tertidur dekat couch" err ? naseb gua tak kenal beliaw an, kalaw gua kenal, i swear to mother earth i will slap her small tits. aaa biasa ah, when orang dah starving to death, he or she will do anything weh!

so we got ourselves to the so called faymes char kuey teow restaurant in town. the aimar's char kuey teow in ttdi jaya!haa apalagay, order ah! tak macham ebody layan 2 pinggan pulaa. ter bo gel! except aizat ah. 1 aja. kunun diet ah. haha. so perut dah kenyang, smoke some cigs and just lepak lepak.

suddenly, kirin dengan mantabnyea berkata, "eh, wallet aku hilang. ada rm 500 dalam" gila. semua was like "kaw bawak ke wallet kaw tadi?". "kaw lari lari tadi, tercicer kot" . sumpah kirin dah gelabah an muka. he went to his bmw and seeked his wallet. tak ada. aih. ebody memang gilababay throwing hendak-taw-ques and some sarcastic one to him. haha. pais dengan rela hati, offered his hp to call ferd1 whom at home at that time. kirin tamaw call ferd1 sebab takut kena anal. ahah. we were making fun of kirin and his ferd1. luckily, the wallet thu ada dekat rumah. dalam poket seluar jeans kirin ann. memang begedil!

it was 1 in the pagay, so we decided to chow. so we went to the counter to pay the bills. and the cashier, gila wicked!
"aaa kuey teow biasa 5, kuey teow besar 1, teh ais 1"
"okay. semuanyea rm 23.40. ada patposen?"
"haa jab. ada kot. limaposen ada ah"

the rest and i was like, "omfg, lawa gila!" *drools* abah dia ah, mata sumpah terbaek siaa! rm 23.40, tadahal ah! i named her as hemocytoblast (a multipotential hematopoietic stem cell. haha. its not my fault weh being a pre-med student!). and ohh yea, kirin and anep, lu orang still owe gua rm 14.00 weh! anyhow, she really just made my day weh. really. she reminded me of the girl who starred in the sunsilk ad. "tiada puisi ataw laghu, yang dapat ku ilham seindah mu, hanyea aw sathu, kaw istimewa.."
yea, the one who wears the green tudung studying in library. oh jesus! gilababay!

its already 3 in the pagay. and here im now. sitting on a couch, in the balcony writing this shit. thinking of hemocytoblast under the february stars on a chilly pagay. gila kedede! hati kuntum siaa gua. haha. ah, who give a fvck ehh?

maybe the beatles were right all these times, what we all need is loue. *sigh* amen.

pesta muda mudi wacken

2008-02-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

its wacken weh! do i need to bagaytaw more ? so, kumpul your money from this very moment, and headbang side by side with me there! gorgoroth, cant wait to see you guys AGAIN. i loue you! thehe

aku sebatang pensel

2008-02-13T04:47:00.000-08:00

hey, its the 2nd day after i signed up for this blog. sorry if got carried away or maybe act a lil bit "gila excited". showing off here and there that i have a blog page. haha. yes, memang gua jakun ekceli. so be it!

well, still on holidays. got woke up early today around 12 in the tengahhari. believe me, i usually wake up at 4 or 5 or at least 3 in the petang. wasted kot ? anyhow, just mandi and then drove to holiday plaza to have some cut. sadly, the saloon that ive been a regular to (mo' cool), was closed till tomorrow. daym it. so gua puseng puseng, jumpa saloon. gua bedal aja lah. i let the pros do my hair all the way. gua malas maw komen an.

so, got back home around 1.30 i think. play some dota, and onlining till maghrib. online ? quite lame eh for a 19yo guy like me sat in front of a monitor for so long ? ir ir ir. i dont wanna put any blame on anybody, but i just cant help it, its all viola's(bukan nama sebenar. nama nak viola. haha) fault ah. kunun a day before, ajak gua layan movie. sekalay pukul 6 baru msg gua, dia ada prob. have to cancel the so called "movie-date". i called her 3 kali before, tutub hp. duhhh. lantak lu ahh viola!(aceh)

then sumpah gua bosan, i went to 7e to buy some cigs. otw back home, lepak kejab at burger stall. ate the famous ramly's beef burger. then just drove back home. and here im now. fvck. gua bosan! later ahh! chalobetey.

fertilization produces zygote

2008-02-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

sup! let me start off my 1st ever blog page with the word "GREETINGS". B-)

well, i dun really have much things to say at the moment, so, i guess ill update this blog later (kalaw gua rajen lah an).

orang kata, it is always nice to end up our writings with a quotation, so, here it goes,

"One of the keys to success is an unflinching belief that there are no rules. Anyone who's ever succeeded has gone on that premise; not buying established procedures, business or otherwise. The naysayers are inevitably left behind amid shouts of 'it cannot be done' and "should not be done"

-Anton Szandor LaVey