an update from Le Writer

please be aware that this blog is becoming seriously emotional.

have a great day today readers and make the most of the sunshine, for tomorrow it starts to get cold again..

could it be any harder ?

I am losing one of the biggest battle in my life.
I am a dead meat now.

O, could it be any harder ?

"I AM THE TORMENTER OF christian SOUL'S,I AM THE FUNERAL FOG THAT DWELL'S IN THE NIGHT,I AM THE DESICRATER OF holy temple's SPILL THIER BLOOD,VOMIT ON THIER CORPSE'S AND SWALLOW THIER FEEBLE SOUL'S HAIL SATHANAS LUCIFERI 666"

- Lord Melkorth, THE ABHORRENT ONE 666

sinusitis

an old poem of mine. thought it would be a thoughtful move to post it here. well, i just am not sure.

SINUSITIS

O permata puriku
Biarlah biaraku berbicara
dan Sang Dewata Raya terus berlegar di empayar chenta kita
Tatkala aku mencari Mergastua.

Bidadariku O
Asmaradana.

Guratan luka yang terparut,
Fatamorgana yang bergelora,
Sudah berjilid luka-duka asmara,
Titah dijunjung
Duli dicemar
Untuk mencari cakerawala di hujung dunia.

Para puspita terus berdansa di dalam kotak pendora,
dan
Kultus si Arjuna yang basi;
Hanyalah ilusi, spekulasi, dan fantasi.
Krisis identiti.

Revolusi metal yang kini terus dieksploitasi,
Tiada lagay eksposisi.
Urbanisasi yang lari daripada tradisi,
Tiada lagay konfrantasi.

Nostalgia yang terbina,
Bukanlah fiktif semata.
Datanglah misteri, datanglah padaku.
Semoga bersemadi bersama pulmunariku.


Sekian "TAMMAT"

4.54 a.m.//21 disembar 2006

only time will tell

sometimes, there is a moment where you ought to do something but you just cant get the job done. you would say, "its just the matter of time" or some would say "lek lu, sap ganja lu".

im all alone now in the house. the mama and the adiks went to kl. the abang is at his hostel. and just now, the abah went out to see orang penting that i dont know who. eh wait a minute, im not alone. the maid is watching tv dekat bawah, kot.

anyhow, today is the abah's 50th birthday and yet, i havent wish him. never to be specific.

only time will tell.

*deep deep sigh*